The Weather Man

hm.... i dont know why im writing this post.
i dont know.
its like- after a wile, everything starts to shift into perspective... the only thing i can relate this to to give u any idea, was being punched in the face, so hard u just hit the ground and everything feels warm, like ur on a cloud...

if u then look towards a light... its like (dont know if anyone can relate... as my eyes seem prety fucked) going cross eyed...
when u focus on it, it moves.

so if i were to try to explain it, life is like having ur head punched in and then everything slowly has to fall into place again.

ok- i would say, that for the first 16/17 years in my life, i was a selfish little shallow shit- to be nice about it.
then i woke up.
U never realise how important something is until it is gone.

but yes... i came to realise that i was stupid. i took things for granted. just the simplest thing like not having to work. not having to do ur own laundry. not needing to worry about weather ull be able to pay rent next week.

and so i guess iv spent the last two years just getting by. taking it one day at a time. like im getting over addiction or morrning or something.

but yes.

and now, its like, im learning that i shouldnt be focusing on yesterday, i shouldnt be focusing on today and now... more- looking at what i wana be doing in a month....

maybe im just growing up?
maybe im not alone???

any words of wisdom world???