realisation

Ever realised that were kind of helpless
i mean... im just lying here in bed, unable to sleep, thinking.

realising that no matter how much i study, no matter how much i earn, it wont be enough to make a real difference to this world?

its like we just go about to sustain ourselves...

like our movie stars... think, in 30 years, johny deep may mean nothing to the next generation, and that they may have new movie stars...

and so the cycle just goes on...

so how do we change this!!! i want to change this! i want to change things!
but i realise now that going to uni every day is not getting it done...

so what can we do>?

And it begins again

A new academic year begins for those of us here in canterbury on monday...
a whole year of study, drama's, THE HUB, all nighters to finish homework etc.

a new start.

kind of worrying, last year went by so quick, only 2 or 3 years left with study...
then life changes.

no more lectures, no more teachers, just a boss and a pay slip.

i personally would prefer things to be just as they are right now forever, but we dont always get what we want now do we :)

Insain Computer Angst...

hm, ok, so i was talking to an old friend about computers and breaking systems etc. and he sent me to a sight on a hack carried out on a macbook.
put simply, the guy took advantage of a usb wireless card pluged into a macbook,and used that as an access point to get complete control of the computer.

i no that sounds dull...
anyway... after reading about it and watching the video, i read through some of the comments.....

now, it was done on a macbook due to the fact that thats what they had, to show it works on most operating systems, not just windows, and also coz the whole "mac is so secure" bullshit that the im a pc, im a mac adds give off...

the thing is... i read the comments, and it was insain...
so many guy bitching about how great windows is, and how great mac is...
it was STUPID!
like blah blah... mac never has security issues...
blah blah ,more people using macs, more threat of security being broken as bigger insentive etc....
blah blah winblow sux.... blah blah

now i no michael doesnt like mac... and i no most windows users dont ( i didnt use to) but then you try it... and its not all that bad at all....

but no operating system is perfect, and no operating system is secure....
systems can always be broken...

so for god sakes people... stop fighting over it.... i swear, some of these mac addicts, who cant just take criticism and post a smart reply...makes me ashamed to be associated with you...

GROW THE FUCK UP!

hm.
i dont no what to say to some people anymore...
there stupidity is beyond me...
its just.... completely ilogical.
now, i no for example pan and i think about things very differently...
however, if i ask him, once he explains his way of doing it... it makes sence. i can make sence of it.i can understand what he was think to arrive at such a conclusion. and i get it...

then there are those that seem to live in there own lil fucking worlds....
were logical decisions never seem to occur...
these are the people i just dont know what to say to anymore....

its like, learning to play piano from learning how to read notes. (as last years law lecturer put it)
u can no the theory behind it... and play like shit.

SOME THINGS YOU JUST HAVE TO DO!

so for god sakes, grow the fuck up...
u cannot spend ur lifes learning theory, and expecting it all to work out... ITS FUCKING STUPID.

i really dont know what to say to get it in these peoples heads.
2 be honest, i like you people, i care about you people, this is the only reason im still trying to get you to wake up.

but im giving up.

you just dont get it...
but if you want want to die without ever really enjoying life, trying new things, actually living...
fine.

yes, i no this post is kinda confusing... but im trying to be nice and leave names and real world examples out, as to not afend anyone here.

but yes.

BOTTOM LINE - GROW THE FUCK UP! WAKE UP! REALISE, IF YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO ENJOY LIFE, YOU HAVE TO DO THINGS... YOU HAVE TO LIVE... you have to take responsibility, and change things that need to be changed...

hm.but yes. im really hoping those people that this applies to actually read it. and take it in... although i believe thats just wishful thinking. but yea.
for the rest of us, im sorry to still be trying.... but i really dont think iv got many more posts like this left in me...

as someone told me a little while ago, you cant help someone that wont help themselves.

Final decision

i have changed the plan once again... simply because i did not have the tools to do the earlier plan.

as you can see, its almost finished. just needs small touch ups over the next few days and it will be done :) so what do people thing??? anything that needs work?

and sorry the picture is so horrible... cant get hold of a digital camera, so thats with my phone... but yes.

if you have ever been taught to paint in black and white, you will understand how much of a hell it is...

instead of infinite colours to describe the form and shapes of the model, you get 2... that and the fact that anything you mix with black becomes "Dirty" makes it a nightmare.
so for my third ever time painting in black and white i think its not to bad.

so leave a comment on what i need to fix now ok>??? LOTS OF COMMENTS PLEASE!

CRAZY COMPUTING!!!

hahaha... ok... i think i may have gone overboard on my macbook...

not only is it running the mac operating system...
but also Linux....
and also windows xp...
and at one point windows Vista (although it wasnt worth installing)

and now... now its gotten a lil more crazy....

In LINUX... i can run mac programs.... i can also run windows xp.... and then i can also use windows xp programs (without loading xp)....

In MAC i can run windows programs.... i am installing windows onto it right now....

In windows.... well windows sucks to be honest.... so i can only really load linux programs... (slowly) and mac programs at a crawl...

add the fact that i can restart in any operating system i want... and well... yea.....
its just kinda crazy now....

last thing i need to do is install Parallels and i can instantly switch between operating systems, within operating systems.... im going to stop now before i lose myself.....

:)

Learnt something new

for all those people who have used my macbook and commented on how annoying having only one mouse button is- I HAVE FOUND THE ANSWER!

in trackpad settings, you can set it so that just by tapping on the track pad, u get a single click- making the button unnecessary....
AND, as the trackpad in the macbook can tell if ur using 1 or 2 fingers (u place 2 on and slide down to scroll down) there is also a setting so you can tap with both fingers to use Secoundary click...

A 2nd Mouse button without a button!!!

GOTA LOVE MAC
(mike-if u say otherwise here i will just delete ur comment)