GROW THE FUCK UP!

hm.
i dont no what to say to some people anymore...
there stupidity is beyond me...
its just.... completely ilogical.
now, i no for example pan and i think about things very differently...
however, if i ask him, once he explains his way of doing it... it makes sence. i can make sence of it.i can understand what he was think to arrive at such a conclusion. and i get it...

then there are those that seem to live in there own lil fucking worlds....
were logical decisions never seem to occur...
these are the people i just dont know what to say to anymore....

its like, learning to play piano from learning how to read notes. (as last years law lecturer put it)
u can no the theory behind it... and play like shit.

SOME THINGS YOU JUST HAVE TO DO!

so for god sakes, grow the fuck up...
u cannot spend ur lifes learning theory, and expecting it all to work out... ITS FUCKING STUPID.

i really dont know what to say to get it in these peoples heads.
2 be honest, i like you people, i care about you people, this is the only reason im still trying to get you to wake up.

but im giving up.

you just dont get it...
but if you want want to die without ever really enjoying life, trying new things, actually living...
fine.

yes, i no this post is kinda confusing... but im trying to be nice and leave names and real world examples out, as to not afend anyone here.

but yes.

BOTTOM LINE - GROW THE FUCK UP! WAKE UP! REALISE, IF YOU ACTUALLY WANT TO ENJOY LIFE, YOU HAVE TO DO THINGS... YOU HAVE TO LIVE... you have to take responsibility, and change things that need to be changed...

hm.but yes. im really hoping those people that this applies to actually read it. and take it in... although i believe thats just wishful thinking. but yea.
for the rest of us, im sorry to still be trying.... but i really dont think iv got many more posts like this left in me...

as someone told me a little while ago, you cant help someone that wont help themselves.

Final decision

i have changed the plan once again... simply because i did not have the tools to do the earlier plan.

as you can see, its almost finished. just needs small touch ups over the next few days and it will be done :) so what do people thing??? anything that needs work?

and sorry the picture is so horrible... cant get hold of a digital camera, so thats with my phone... but yes.

if you have ever been taught to paint in black and white, you will understand how much of a hell it is...

instead of infinite colours to describe the form and shapes of the model, you get 2... that and the fact that anything you mix with black becomes "Dirty" makes it a nightmare.
so for my third ever time painting in black and white i think its not to bad.

so leave a comment on what i need to fix now ok>??? LOTS OF COMMENTS PLEASE!

CRAZY COMPUTING!!!

hahaha... ok... i think i may have gone overboard on my macbook...

not only is it running the mac operating system...
but also Linux....
and also windows xp...
and at one point windows Vista (although it wasnt worth installing)

and now... now its gotten a lil more crazy....

In LINUX... i can run mac programs.... i can also run windows xp.... and then i can also use windows xp programs (without loading xp)....

In MAC i can run windows programs.... i am installing windows onto it right now....

In windows.... well windows sucks to be honest.... so i can only really load linux programs... (slowly) and mac programs at a crawl...

add the fact that i can restart in any operating system i want... and well... yea.....
its just kinda crazy now....

last thing i need to do is install Parallels and i can instantly switch between operating systems, within operating systems.... im going to stop now before i lose myself.....

:)

Learnt something new

for all those people who have used my macbook and commented on how annoying having only one mouse button is- I HAVE FOUND THE ANSWER!

in trackpad settings, you can set it so that just by tapping on the track pad, u get a single click- making the button unnecessary....
AND, as the trackpad in the macbook can tell if ur using 1 or 2 fingers (u place 2 on and slide down to scroll down) there is also a setting so you can tap with both fingers to use Secoundary click...

A 2nd Mouse button without a button!!!

GOTA LOVE MAC
(mike-if u say otherwise here i will just delete ur comment)

Growing up

Growing up...
its funny, in the past if we did something bad, we apolagise, and try to make a mends.
however, as we grow up, the need for an apologie disapears.
as its not so much a slip up in our behaviour.

our actions define who we are as people correct?
and society does not view us as people until we mature???
therefore, we are not people until we are done moving from a youth to an adult.

This is the scary question: if my actions define who i am- what actions do others see???
if my actions are defining who i am more and more, then its fair to say i am who my actions portray?

its like were at our final stages. a blank canvas.
and what we do from now on will define us as who we are forever.

just something to think about this year

Breakthrough!

hm... this is probably better on my mac blog, as i get the feeling no-one will understand what im on about...
put simply, between drinking (which took up an alarming amount of time), iv been playing with my macbook, and now have 4 operating systems installed, as well as a data drive. allowing me to run almost anything...

ontop of that, i have worked out WEP and WPA netowork cracking...
(finding a password to a password protected wireless network)
as well as network poisoning...(intercepting data between the users computers and the networks, and then pretending to be the sites the user visits, intercepts information, eg passwords, usernames)

kinda scarry when u think about it... next time u go online and enter in ur user account name and password... just think about it....

but yes... finally worked how to get in to a network!!! (not that i plan to use it, but yea)
u work it out... then understand how amazing the technology is...
i mean.... i have no idea who comes up with this kinda stuff!!! its insain!!!

Important Question part 2:

ok, so in conclusion we have decided that success is:

-Being loved! be it by partner, family etc
-Financial independance (the BMW u always wanted von)
-Being happy, and making others happy
-Making the world a better place (maybe the last ones just me, but no1 said i was wrong, so meh)

ok, second question:

What are you going to do about it??? how are you going to get there??

The Weather Man

hm.... i dont know why im writing this post.
i dont know.
its like- after a wile, everything starts to shift into perspective... the only thing i can relate this to to give u any idea, was being punched in the face, so hard u just hit the ground and everything feels warm, like ur on a cloud...

if u then look towards a light... its like (dont know if anyone can relate... as my eyes seem prety fucked) going cross eyed...
when u focus on it, it moves.

so if i were to try to explain it, life is like having ur head punched in and then everything slowly has to fall into place again.

ok- i would say, that for the first 16/17 years in my life, i was a selfish little shallow shit- to be nice about it.
then i woke up.
U never realise how important something is until it is gone.

but yes... i came to realise that i was stupid. i took things for granted. just the simplest thing like not having to work. not having to do ur own laundry. not needing to worry about weather ull be able to pay rent next week.

and so i guess iv spent the last two years just getting by. taking it one day at a time. like im getting over addiction or morrning or something.

but yes.

and now, its like, im learning that i shouldnt be focusing on yesterday, i shouldnt be focusing on today and now... more- looking at what i wana be doing in a month....

maybe im just growing up?
maybe im not alone???

any words of wisdom world???